I rarely need to use an alarm. And you can bet your bottom dollar that if I do set one – and if it wakes me - it will be one of those rare occasions when I could
have slept longer. If I’m lucky, I sleep
for five or six hours a night (with a big 'catch up once a week, because I'm so exhausted), which isn’t really enough; but, as I rarely
awake feeling refreshed, I don’t think the length of time I’m unconscious is significant. There’s neither rhyme
nor reason to it.
I used to sleep really well and once my head hit the
pillow I was out: like a light. Unfortunately
sleep gets more fragile with age and during the last few years I’ve begun
suffering with sleep maintenance insomnia.
When I worked full-time it was a different story. Sleep was a luxury that I didn't get enough
of - not that I promoted it: I burnt my candles at both ends –
and in the middle. In those days the
only way I ensured that I got up and out of bed, and on the way to work, was
to put the alarm clock on the other side of the room; it meant that I had to get out of bed - to switch it off. I
did not go back to bed, for obvious reasons (!)
The first thing I do on waking is to look at my smartphone
to check my emails and I sometimes write a couple of sentences. This will take about five
minutes at most. Years ago, if I was on
holiday – or had no reason to get up - I would pray, first thing, and very
occasionally read for a while.
But it was more usual, as now, to get up
immediately. I have never enjoyed just lying
around in bed – in fact I have a deep resistance to going to bed in the first
place! I’m not convinced I’m an owl,
though – I like being up early in the morning and going to bed late.
My mobility is very bad for the first couple of hours, so
I am staggering around like a drunk until my body catches on that my brain
is telling it, “This is the way we walk.”
I take my medication and immediately head for the kitchen. I drink a large glass of orange juice
(diluted with water) and put the kettle on.
Whilst I wait for it to boil I eat a couple of Digestive biscuits. I then carry my two mugs of tea (don’t ask!) outside and sit on the back porch to enjoy the view and cogitate. I do this,
whatever the weather, winter or summer; and no matter where I am. I have mild claustrophobia and spend
as much time out of doors as I can.
When I worked I still had two cups of tea, but I didn’t
manage to get outside until I began my journey to work. I have always been lucky enough that my place
of work has been within walking distance.
This is not just because I have never driven; it’s because of where I
have lived, up until now: in small towns or in city centers. This walking time used to give me a good ten to fifteen minutes to clear my head. I really
needed this space and used to decline offers of lifts to work even if it was raining or
snowing. It was that important.
And then - as now - after my morning constitutional, I was set up and ready for whatever the day was going to throw at me.
Sophia,
ReplyDeleteI really hate that as we age we lose our good sleep patterns. I go to sleep okay, but wake several times usually about 3am. I can go back to sleep most times but at 5:30ish..I just can't stay in the bed. Up in the quiet, coffee, crossword puzzle or a book. That time alone is good for the soul.
There are several things I dislike about growing older and losing out on much needed sleep is definitely one of them. I agree that time alone is good for the soul; only I have an abundance of that, already! Hey, ho; we are, where we are.
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